Ask me why and I'll spit in your eye

4:29PM

my last full day in bc is a lot less eventful that you'd expect. mostly cuz i have no car. i dont know how people live like this. i even walked for awhile, which was nice, but i can only walk so far.
considering how hectic tomorrow and the next month after that are gonna be, i think im just going to enjoy the boringness of today.
ive got about 24hrs till the truck gets loaded and im gone. its starting to get weird.

.:1 sparkle :: shine?:.

1:27PM

im pretty dissapointed that michele didnt update her journal last night.
it wouldve been a good one.
for my lunch today i was goin to walk to a sushi place, but instead i just sat at my desk and ate cookies.
my interview was good..i was a lot more charming than i thought i could be, but they said they won't decide till the last week of july. so im not going to apply for any other jobs. if i dont get it i will cash in on EI.
be unemployed for once in my life.
spend some quality time with the kids, i think they are starting to hate their workaholic mom. not the drunk kids, the furry ones.
SEVEN work days left!

.:shine?:.

1:38PM

i think i might start using this again. im pretty insanely bored at work..and still have 9 more days to go. facebook is just not doing it for me anymore.
i have a job interview in 2hrs. on the phone.
i should be preparing or something, but i cant think of much more preparation..i thought of a weakness and a strength. i cant think of any otehr questions they might ask.
im going to try not to say um, im going to try not to sound like im twelve years old..but anyone who's talked to me on the phone knows that this may be difficult.
the hardest part about this interview is probly going to be the fact that i dont even know what the job is. they probly assume that ive actually applied for this job, but no...dayne's cousin just gave them my resume. i don't know what its for. neither does he.
one of my strengths is that i'm pretty good at bullshitting my way through most situations. thank you stream.

but i have a feeling that theyll want me to start in like a week, and i absolutely refuse to budge in my moving plans. so the entire thing may be pointless. wish me luck.

.:1 sparkle :: shine?:.

1:47PM - I need to be outside

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10:09PM

i wish i had something good and interesting to stalk or obsess over online. 
its 10pm, on saturday night. im so bored. 
but im getting paid $37/hr to sit in a comfy little office, with the lights off, listening to music, occassionally checking voicemail and answering like one call an hour...sure there is a potential something could happen and i will have to do some work..i did work for about an hour earlier..but so far its pretty good, mostly just text messaging and talking on msn.
and im not gonna lie, i have a bottle of whiskey in my desk, im already half drunk. 
i made about $250 doing this tonight. Union fees really are worth it folks.

i started this as a complaint, but i guess im really just bragging.

.:2 sparkle :: shine?:.

12:46PM - yucky

so last night at about 2am i was woken by a familiar sound. it was Miko gagging. 
then i realized she was sitting right on me. 
i moved pretty fast, but it didnt help. she barfed all over me, then all over the floor where i had to walk. 

there was a lazy second where i considered just going back to sleep...but my mummy instincts made me get up and clean it all. it was disgusting. i didn't have the heart to get mad at her, but when she tried to cuddle with me right afterwards i pushed her off and she had to sleep beside me. 

this feline bulimia is really getting to be a problem.

.:shine?:.

5:08PM

so quite a bit happened in the past couple days...
i had one of those weeks where im mostly just lazy and everything seems to go wrong and im not really motivated to do anything at all...then on friday, after my real job i went straight to the other job, jim's pizza. 
and it was way worse than usual. i dont even want to get into it but it included things like delivering only to disgusting crack places (i seriuosly delivered to two hookers on bole ave. that were high. serious) including the rez, where they dont believe in street names, so i drove around for twenty minutes, then i tried to turn around from a dead end and got stuck in the mud. in the pitch black on the rez with $100 worth of food. 
by some miracle i got out of that, finally found the house, gave them there $70 order, did not even get a single cent tip and the debit machine died, while i still had another debit order in the car that was now twenty minutes late. 
so then like six more things went wrong, i was ready to kill myself and then i had to move my car so a cook could get out..and well i moved it right into the side of another driver's car. it was awesome. 
just awesome. 
so now my car is all scratched and fucked..pretty sure i'll never bother getting that fixed. the other guy told me to buy him a case of beer. so then i still do more deliveries, things still fuck up. and finally i get to cash out, i give all my receipts to the owner...and i am $20 short. im ready to lose it. i recounted like 4 times, and finally when i was almost about to cry i noticed that he had dropped a piece of paper, it was all crumpled and stepped on. it was a reciept for $28.45
so im not short anymore. 
i did however make exactly $8.45 in tips for 4.5hrs of work. 

so i went straight home and got stoned and ate mcdonalds and felt sorry for myself. 
the next morning there were about 4 more things that went wrong and instead of staying in bed all day feeling sorry for myself, i went to apply for new jobs. i just had three resumes printed, and on my third stop, the lady asked if she could interview me right there..within 10mins she was in love and asked if i could start training at 7 that night(it was 3:30)
i had just enough time to go home, eat and call jims to quit. so i am now a proud employee of Java Hut.
i worked till 930 then went to the go bragg show where the owner of jims got mad at me for calling in sick. i said, no i didnt call in sick, i quit. and he laughed.

so then in the morning i got up nice and early an went to manning with allison, where i accompanied my 7yr old boyfriend nicholas to the Polar Coaster Tube Park. 
it was actually pretty fun..the "runs" were gettign pretty icy and we were whipping down them...then i went crazy fast around a corner, and went sideways up the wall, where my tube flipped over and i smashed my face directly into the ice wall. then i rolled down and honestly i couldnt even really see for a minute..i just kinda lied there. but i didnt want to freak nicholas out so i got up and the australian guy running the tow rope things runs over and is like "oh my god! are you okay?!" he was like freaking out, "that was so harsh! oh my god!" he thought i landed on my shoulder and made me move it around, but i assured him that my face received most of the blow. he asked like three times if i wanted the snow patrol people to come.
i kinda just thought i had a headached until we stopped for lunch and i noticed the cut on my face and the beginnings of a black eye. and it stil feels a little ice burnt. apparently more people get seriously injured in the tube park than in the snowboard park. 
anyways, it was fun.

and i just got off the phone with my new boss and i already have 4 more shifts this week. even though i said id like to work about 3 shifts a week and only one day of the weekend...i work monday, thursday, saturday and sunday.  it kinda sucks that i wont get tips anymore(not that i really got much), but i think the delcious soups and baked goods will make up for it.
 

.:2 sparkle :: shine?:.

10:03AM

ive decided to start making an effort towards overall improvement. this is includes eating, exercising, saving money and just not being lazy anymore. 
so this weekend i only got a little drunk on friday..only spent $20, plus a little time with mum, did not drive at all, was at home in bed by 1230. Saturday i cleaned a bit, went grocery shopping and spent under $20 on bread, milk, eggs and honey bunches of oats. plus the cheese i have at home, this is more than enough food for the week. 
Saturday evening, lovely visit with the girls, no drinking, no money spent. 
Sunday i got up early and spent literally 4hrs cleaning the house. i cleaned the inside of the garbage can.  
then as soon as i was done i met my dad and we walked the dog for an hour and a half. we went to 3 different parks, stopping at each for like 15mins to run around and throw sticks. my dad is the king of power walking, so we covered a lot of ground during that time...and even though i was only wearing a thin sweatshirt with shortish sleeves and my entire body was numb, i didnt even complain. i did however play hopscotch to keep warm. 

then when i got home i did not even get mad about the 6 guys making a crazy drunk mess in the spanking newly cleaned house. i just went out for coffee with lala and stayed in my bedroom all night. surprisingly the house was actually pretty clean this morning. 
so, so far it is going according to plan, hopefully it wont rain for awhile, cuz then i will inevitably sit on the couch sulking and watching movies.

.:2 sparkle :: shine?:.

12:28PM - almost famous

my mom took me and journey to charlotte's web last night. mom cried the whole time and journey said some hilarious things. it was a good time. 

then one of the most exciting things ever happened.
k, i have this shirt i got in vegas. it is creamish and has brown bunnies all over it and it gives me mega cleavage. it is featured in a few myspace photos. 
i think ive only ever worn it twice but both times it got rave reviews. once i wore it to work and adriana commented that i looked like rachel bilson. 

Anyway, last night after the movie i was watching the OC on tape and summer was wearing the exact same shirt!! 
however i dont think she was wearing it right because she hardly had any cleavage and believe me this shirt works wonders with the boobs.

but isnt that awesome anyhow? i mean, its as if i was practically making out with seth cohen. pretty close. 
im pretty sure i am not going to record over that tape.

.:2 sparkle :: shine?:.

9:21AM - taste the rainbow

last nite we watched rudolph and ate the candy we were supposed to use for gingerbread houses. 
i grabbed a random handful of smarties and this is what i got. 
it was beautiful.

.:1 sparkle :: shine?:.

10:19AM - hag(gard)

i recently started sharing my office with a new nurse, she's only been here like a week, she's very nice..and this morning first thing she says to me is "Are you okay?"   uh, ya, im great, why?  
"You just look a little rough, were you partying last night or something?"   uh..nope...

weird. i had thought i looked fine this morning when i left...did not even sleep in today. but sure enough when i went to the washroom a few minutes later, i looked pretty...rough. my hair was all frizzy and shit....and my eyes are starting to feel all stoned and tired. 
maybe its the weed brownie i had before bed....maybe its the 12hrs i worked before that. 
maybe its the anemia i just got blood drawn to test for. who knows.

i do know i will have to tough it out a little longer since i won't be sleeping for quite some time yet.  Thanks to the Barker-Christmas-Plinko-Drinko extravaganza!!  (honestly im a little scared, i think im going to be doing a lot of babysitting tonite)

ps, if you happen to be watching the price is right right now, look for me in the very center, about 3 rows from the back. black hair, grey shirt, right behind the two oldest ladies ever. i might look a little rough there too since i slept in a car from 4-10am in 1hr intervals. 

.:shine?:.

9:46AM - +

i think i'd have to say that my favorite part about the new job is that i know i'm not going to be finding myself looking up the proper spelling of "diarrhea" at 9am. or any time of the day for that matter. 

2nd favorite is a tie between price gun and shrinkwrap gun.

.:1 sparkle :: shine?:.

12:31PM

i just got my paystub..apparently i recently got a 50 cent raise. nice.
yet im still about $500 short of bill money this payday.  im not really sure how that happened, besides my pneumonia....and broken cell phone.

i need to get a second job where i work mon-weds, 5-10ish...possibly with some sundays. 
any offers? i really wish i had even a little bit of serving experience. tips would be nice. 
do you think im nice and pretty enough to be hired with no experience at all?
if not ..im seriously considering asking allison to hire me.  but im not sure if shifts work like that...
i also considered asking to work at stream again...cuz it pays so much more....but honestly im not sure that i could handle that much computer time in one day..or even just being in that building again. plus i would have to kill myself if stream turned me down.
and there is a good chance of that considering how i left. 

i know that i freak out like this about once a month and then in a day or two im alright, but i think i really need to take some kind of action this time, its getting ridiculous. especially with christmas. 

there was an ad for a "receptionist" position at a "massage parlour" ...for a second i thought that in the slight chance it was actually JUST a receptionist job..it possibly would be kind of funny and interesting...but then i remembered its chilliwack and it would actually just be completely gross and replusive. 

any other ideas? preferably something involving busywork...so its distracting and goes by fast. and that will give me the exact shifts i want. 
ugh. 
  

.:3 sparkle :: shine?:.

1:36PM

i wish i could hibernate for most of the winter. my bedroom is real cozy. 
i didnt get out of bed till alarm #6 today. 

i had a good good weekend.  

my fly trap is not very impressive, and my brother may already have killed it. but im still gonna try. we'll see how it goes. 
i need to buy a terrarium or something. crazy. 

last night my dad took me out for dinner. i had the best thing in the world, chicken pot pie. i was still basking in its deliciousness when dad took the bandage off his finger.   gaaaahhhhhhhhh.  
it actually wasnt that bad. just weird. 

im pretty bored, can you tell?

.:3 sparkle :: shine?:.

9:35AM

Today is already definitely not as good as yesterday. I think I have the birthday-boxing day-blues. The Triple B’s.

Bryce forced me to drink this drink, it is Coca-cola Blak. Coke & Coffee. Its disgusting but I admit I cannot stop drinking it. Even though I feel pretty sick, and its giving me a bad headache, I cant stop.

 

The day is also bad because I slept in(not much, just a little, probably due to the 5 drinks I had before bed). Then I went to have a shower, apparently the hot water is now broken too. Now I am at work and sharing an office with the most annoying person in the entire world. I’m not exaggerating

I can barely handle her on a regular day, but today already there have been like 3 emergencies and she is completely fucking useless. She is trying to get me to do all this stuff for her and it is not my job at all. i also had to show her how to Copy & Paste.she didnt even ask nicely, she said it like its my job to do these things for her. I got a wee bit short with her this morning. So did my boss. I’m pretty sure everyone hates her.

I’d like to smash her face in with a shovel.

Serious.

 

Anyhow, on another note, my birthday.  Much better than today.

Between phone calls, text messages and the internet, I got the most birthday wishes ever.

My daddy even text msg’d me before work. That’s quite an accomplishment for him. Especially with the severed finger.

So, presents: al&michelle got me a pirate ship Puzz 3D, im very excited. Also a bunch of sweet movies & Three’s Company. Plus a few gorgeous Disney princess things.

I also got clothes, slippers, the little mermaid and money

My brothers, I am very proud of them….they got me this weird light globe thing that changes rainbow colors, AND…get ready for it……a VENUS FLY TRAP.

Yes! I don’t actually get it until tomorrow, I am effin psyched.

Apparently they can live for 25years. I might kill it by xmas but it will be fun while it lasts.

It has four heads on it…should I name the plant as a whole or name each head individually?  Im goin to spend the majority of the day researching.

I also have several more presents coming including a mystery ebay present that is Buffy themed and I cant imagine what it is.

 

So between sweet presents, the olive garden dinner and a surprise appearance from jakob hogart, my birthday was a success. Im excited for tomorrow…Allison bought a bowling set for the kitchen.

.:1 sparkle :: shine?:.

1:54PM - happy pumpkin day

i dunno who i thought i was kidding, a budget at ikea. i didnt come across the little table...but i did find pretty much everything else i could possibly ever want and so i figured there would not be much room for the table. 

if you thought i had an 8yr old's bedroom before....just wait...oh man. 

i really wish i had the kind of job where you just have ot get a certain amount of work done and then leave....because i have been done work since about 830am, and its getting more and more difficult to keep myself entertained and still looking busy. i almost miss the stream days when i could just put my feet up and go to sleep. or play tetris.  anything. instead i spent about 2hrs on msn, 1hr on myspace, .5hr text messaging.....
right now im force feeding myself a peanut butter & honey sandwich just cuz im so bored.

all i can think about is going home and setting up the rest of my stuff.  in reality i will be cleaning out kitty litter and tidying up before people come over and mess it all up again. 

between the scary movies and the suspense of tomorrow, i do not think i will sleep tonite. 

haha, just found out the stones got postponed. maybe they realized how much more important i am..?

.:1 sparkle :: shine?:.

10:30AM - two more sleeps!

so he did call me back, again at 2am...this time i was the drunk one. its hard to politely turn someone down when you are drunk at a costume party at 2am and Wolverine is standing right there waiting to hit on you some more. 
i tried to be nice, but i think he ended up getting mad at me...not really sure, it was loud and i was just glad to be off the phone. 
then Wolverine's girlfriend was also mad and i guess i was not everyones favorite that night. 

but i still had fun and i was very sparkly so thats all that matters. 

i dont know what it is about mondays, i just find it so damn hard to actually work. and since mondays are never busy i can usually get away with working just the bare minimum. which is good except for how slow the day is.   I guess thats a typical Case of the Mondays

last night before bed al and i planned a trip to ikea today. we're pretty excited. even though we are on a strict budget, and are going just for shoe racks and coat hooks.....its still exciting. im gonna splurge $15 on that little table with hollow legs and i will fill them with rainbow sprinkles. 
can you buy those in bulk? i hope so. 

4 more work hours to go. with probably about 1hr of actual work to do. i think i can probly stretch it out.

.:shine?:.

2:30PM - boo!

last night we bought The Office and stayed in. im proud of us. 
then at 2am i was woken up by a call from my first boyfriend, from grade 5. 
he is drunk and has been thinking about me lots and wants to take me to dinner this week. 

i was like, how do you know you want to do that since we have not spoken to each other in several years? and then he tells me it has been exactly 3years since we spoke, and he describes the conversation.  it was about a rave. i do not remember it at all. 
im still pretty asleep and tell him sorry i am busy all week. So how about tomorrow then(today now)?  no, sorry, busy. 
so he says he is calling me today. hopefully he was so drunk that he has lost my number, which he got from my drunk brother. 

i just dont even know what to say in this situation. especially since if i recall correctly, he has just had a baby.  no thank you. 

.:2 sparkle :: shine?:.

1:40PM - I'm all Saint baby

One Week. (or nine days)

are you excited? yes i am

.:6 sparkle :: shine?:.

2:42PM - T-minus 16hrs

yeeeee.
i was up last nite till about 1am packing and stuff...then around 2am i was almost asleep and Smeek started doing the lassie meow like there was an emergency. turns out she just just wanted me to hang out in the kitchen and watch her eat. After the 3rd time i went out there(im so gullible) i finally started gettign back to sleep and rufus decided to build a fort or something in my closet for a good 10mins before i made him stay out of there....
i got about an hour of sleep before allison was up...then another hour before i had to get up and open at work by myself.

yet....i feel incredibly energized. hopefully it will last at least 2 more weeks.
pray for us.

.:shine?:.